What do you wish to trust in?
Jamie really got to the heart of my issues that I have been having lately.
I made the March dreamboard, wanting Fearless True Love--and even though technically I have had it there for eight years now, this shifted and allowed things to develop in unexpected ways.
Even the ex and I are communicating almost like decent people lately.
So I got what I asked for--I got what I wished for--and I am so terrified--terrified--as in there really are monsters under the bed ready to eat me SCARED STIFF--that I am going to do what I always seem to do and screw it up and scare him off and be over-bearing and --and--and--who knows what.
I am so afraid of losing my best friend.
I wish I could trust myself.
I wish I could trust myself the way he trusts me.
I wish I could trust myself the way I trust him.
I wish I could just believe and could let go of the need to believe.
I wish I could trust myself, all the time, every day, without exception.
